This isn’t the usual post that you’ll see come from Scarlett. Hopefully this will help heal… not only her… but those reading this.
There comes a time when you have to face the scariest moments in your life. It may come at you in a fiery collision, literally. Where you are fighting for your life, struggling for every physical breath. When your mind is begging for life, your heart runs through all your memories all at once, and you dream of what the future will be like… if you make it out of this alive. And if you do make it out of this crash…. will you be the same as you were before? What scars will you show? What pain will you endure? How will you change? How will you even face the unknown? How will you know….?
Then… you will come into a crash of a completely different sort. The kind that shatters you…from the inside out. It often comes as a slow destruction. You feel a twinge of pain, now and then. But you dismiss it…. because it doesn’t hurt for long, it doesn’t really cause that much pain. You don’t feel the scar that is forming, so it really isn’t there, is it? This sort of battle is one that could last for days, months…. even years. Once you finally realize you’re actually at war… it seems like a lifetime has passed. And you shed light on the dark corners in your soul…. you see the demons, the scars, the pain and the torment. You ask yourself where it has all come from….how you didn’t know it was there…. why do you see it now? Then…. you begin to wonder how you will mend the brokenness that has now become a part of who you are. Just like in the fiery crash, you fight… you struggle, push and pull….You wonder if how your heart will keep beating, how will the oxygen feed your cells. Is it possible to survive this? After it’s been leaving behind scars for so long, how do you know it will be worth the battle?
Here’s how you know…. these scars you are finally seeing…. these are now a part of your DNA….they make you who you are, RIGHT NOW. Not who you were years ago, not even who you were yesterday, the day before the light illuminated the darkness. Embrace the battle. Hug the pain. Own it. Allow it to be what it is…. a part of you. The moment you do this, the scars and darkness are no longer frightening or ugly. Instead, you will see these things for what they truly have become…..unquestionable beauty. Without darkness…there can be no light. Without light… there can be no shadows. Without one, the other doesn’t exist.